Finishing up strong

The week started off hot. Everything was flowing, mood was good. Morale untouched.  The end of the week not so much.  Physically I kicked ass. I had a great shoulder workout which is historically my laggiest body part, they just dont grow, even after I hammer them to exhaustion and sheer agony natta.  Friday I chose cardio, did almost 4.5 miles on the treadmill.  I left dizzy, and wanting to vomit but overall happy with the weeks lifts.  On the other side. I've been in a funk the last 2-3 days.  Doubt, pessimism, irritability. I think the isolation maybe kicking in. Who knows. This is typically where I start questioning all my choices and decisions career wise and I am never able to talk myself out of that downward spiral. Hopefully next month is better.

The end of the week finished off with sadness. No details but a training accident here on post left 2 folks very injured and 2 more no longer with us. I cannot imagine the families who received the news. Your sons are away from the war, training and honing their skills and this happened. Really makes you think, however no time to think when I get a message telling me a Patron saint of a man who I worked with briefly but remained in contact with after his retirement passed away as well.  He had a heart of gold, never was in a bad mood, and consistently on a daily basis would ask about my family. A true saint. I'm infuriated that I cannot be local to say good bye. It never fails, every time I go away, birthdays, holidays, tragedies, family reunions. I miss them all. I havent been home to see my family in close to 3 years. Everytime I try some shit comes up, just like this damn assignment.  The same assignment that is going to ultimately seal my fate with OTS because I know in my heart of hearts that the powers that be have seen that I am gone and push the package aside.  Can I deal with this shit for 10 more years?

Enough of the feeling sorry for mysel

Shoulders.  3 reps of the 5/3/1

Barbell Military Press

135x3
155x3
175x8   this was a best for me. putting me close to a 225 max. My wrist felt great

After that I was off to the raises,  DB lateral raises, Barbell shrugs,  DB front raises, DB rear lateral raises. Upright rows.  I was just drilling away.  My strength gains this week were great personally.

More ab work and cardio after.

to have the time to focus on the lift, really hit the weights hard,  run, and eat eat eat.  If anything happens during this assignment it will be that I have that physical transformation I have been trying for for years.